Mommy guilt

Mommy guilt/stress/worry is a powerful force. Most of the time I am purposely pretty relaxed about things, or at least I attempt to be, but it still creeps in. Is she eating enough? Is she sleeping enough? That’s the biggie really because everybody tells you how important that is, so she could probably sleep fabulously for 20 hours a day and I’d still be worried. You know what I’m saying? Adrian has to remind me that she’s growing and I just don’t need to stress about it. I try to remember that when she wakes up when we’re ready to head to bed and doesn’t go back to sleep for an hour. Hehe.

On most points I feel pretty good on the mothering front (okay, depending on the day). We have so far been successful vis a vis the house ban on battery operated toys, and she enjoys playing with my fabric scraps as much as anything else. So of course that makes me happy. Ideally I’d like her to have a little less ’screen time,’ but even that isn’t much. We watch a few shows as a family, but mostly after she goes to sleep. She likes Michelle Duggar (I swear she smiles biggest whenever she’s on the screen), and if that’s her TV I don’t feel too bad. Who wouldn’t love them, seriously? I want to be Michelle (though perhaps with less children–I just mean the way she speaks and acts), so it doesn’t surprise me Morgan is drawn to her, too.

Anyway. I didn’t mean to get on a Duggar tangent. The other big thing is the computer, which I am personally trying to use way less of. I keep it off during the day and make myself turn it off when I’m finished. It’s a time waster, and I don’t like feeling like I’m squandering my time. So far I’m feeling good about that. I spent a crazy amount of time in front of the computer watching shows on Hulu when she was small and we spent half of every day nursing. So it’s good to break away.

The computer lessening is more possible because I use my phone, which means I’m also trying to limit how much I’m staring at that. Adrian saw something from…Jimmy Fallon?…about how the kids just want their parents to pay attention to them instead of their iPhones. Yeah. Guilty as charged, at least a little. So we’re working on that a bit, too

Of course, all my efforts to give her a commercial free childhood (or some degree of that) with less noise and electronics is prettymuch negated by the fact that her favorite toys are our phones. Haha. What can you do?

And now for a few pictures for those people who only scan for pictures and don’t actually read what’s written…

She’s getting hair, and even some possible curls, which is what I was attempting to capture here.

P. S. Yes, I’ve been crafting a lot with the new sewing machine. See, even Morgan has been in on the fun:

Danger alert! Yes, I know she probably shouldn’t play with bobbins because she might choke. But I was right there watching and if she tried to put one in her mouth I’d pull her hand away. So don’t worry.